Victor Asteinza

Did You Know…

November 24th, 2008

Did you know…

Did you know that I am made out with your boyfriend?
It was hot.
Oh yeah, you know, one of your hands was on my ass, and the other…

Did you know that I am not cool?
That quite guy at the edge of the party watching everyone, seeming to not have a care in the world?
Yeah, not cool. He is trying to figure out how to mingle and fit in.

Did you know that I sometimes wear sexy underwear or none at all?
Because it makes me feel, well, sexy.

Did you know that I made out with your fiance?
I thought you would like to know, now that you are married.
Don’t worry the threesome never happened, even though it came really close.

Did you know that my morals drive me nuts?
I sometimes wish I had no morals. Damn morals.
Thanks mom.

Did you know that I used to fantasizes about your sister?
I would come home to find her tied up naked,
With a note from you telling me that I could have my way with her for one night.

Did you know that I use to have a really big crush on you?
Ever since the day we started working together,
But you are married and didn’t think that you swung both ways.

Did you know that I too, have little self control when it comes to drinking?
I just ordered another one just because you asked me if wanted another one.

Did you know that I really like smoking, and have no intention of quitting?
Even though I tell you I want to,
Its just my ploy for you to stop hounding me.

Did you know that I always feel guilty the next morning after groping and making out with your girlfriend?
I can’t help it, she is a great kisser and has an amazing body.
But you already know that, since she is your girlfriend.

Did you know that I worry about you?
Even though we are not together anymore, and I am slightly jealous.
I hope that you find what you are looking for.
Shit, I hope to find what I am looking for.

Did you know that I don’t know what I am looking for?
Yeah, no clue.
Just moving day to day, trying not to think too much.

Did you know that I think too much?
I over think most situations, see every possibility, almost like I am playing chess,
And then focus on the negative outcomes.
Nice, right?

Did you know that when I am depressed I often think about suicide?
I am pretty sure I know how I would do it.
I just need to figure out what to do with my car.

Did you know that I would never commit suicide?
I love my friends and family too much to hurt them like that.
But it sometimes feel nice to be able to see everyone getting together to see how much they love me.

Did you know that I believe once you are dead, you are dead?
So the previous thought wont work.

Did you know that the only thing I am terrified of is seeing a ghost?
Not sure how this would work considering my last thought.

Did you know that I am confused?
Yeah, I don’t know.

Did you know that I need people around me?
Even though I am not good at meeting new people.

Did you know that I don’t know where I am going?
No clue. I like to pretend I know, but the road in front of me is hazy.

Did you know that I sometimes forget where I have been?
I get depressed thinking I haven’t don’t anything,
But then I think back and realize that I have done a lot.

Did you know that I love to dance?
Its one of the things that I enjoy most,
Especially when the music just takes me away on some journey I have no control over.

Did you know that I don’t know who I am?
Everyone else seems to know.
Tell me, please, who am I?

November 2008

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