Goodbye Old Friend
September 5th, 2008
Goodbye Old Friend
The time to say goodbye has come my old friend
It hurts me so to have come to this end
But the pain you cause overpowers the love felt
I truly tried to keep the friendship alive
But it is too much of a hardship
I need to move on
I need to find myself
I need to let it all go
Part of me wants to keep the connection
But that part is holding me back
Not letting me do what I have to do
Not letting me feel what I should feel
Not letting me see what I need I to see
I was holding onto an artificial hope
Part of me thanks you for destroying that so I can move on
Part of me loathes you for breaking my heart yet again
Why do I repeatedly allow that
Why do I hold on
Why do I not let go
Why do I allow myself to be so engulfed in your energy
I am training myself to let that energy go
It is not an easy task
But it is becoming easier
Little by little I am letting go
Little by little I am growing stronger
Little by little I am becoming me again
The questions now are
Who am I
Who do I want to be
Who is this person that others see, yet I don’t
It is with these borrowed words that I state
Parting is such sweet sorrow
I truly hope that our paths cross again in joyous times
But for now
The time to say goodbye has come my old friend
04 September 2008
